bringing this back today for the start of pride month. still overwhelmed by how well this comic went down and with how many people relate. it’s easy to think aro-ace people are all totally accepting of their identities and really proud of who they are. i guess on websites like this you see a lot of people proudly putting their identity in their bio, a flag in their profile picture.
in fact i think a lot of aro-ace people really hate that part of themselves, hide it, and struggle for a long time to ‘accept’ who they are and feel any sense of ‘pride’. that’s the feeling i wanted to capture here. the disappointment, the loneliness, upon realising that you can’t feel what is such a wonderful thing. the embarrassment of not being ‘normal’, of being some random sexuality that nobody irl has heard of, and letting down those around you because you can’t be who they want you to be. how desperately you want to change, how desperately you want to feel. but you just can’t.
i know not all aro-ace people feel like this. i know lots of aro and/or ace people feel able to be in relationships, to feel closeness and have partners in other ways. but i think it’s important to be aware that some aro-ace people do feel like this.
the comments on this comic have mostly been great but a few have been very frustrating. a comment it got a lot was along the lines of ‘aw!! you don’t need to have sex to be in a relationship!’. you completely missed the point, hah. this is not a comic about sex. it’s about a lack of feeling, the lack of something beautiful other people seem to have. another comment that popped up a few times was ‘maybe she’s a lesbian’. well maybe lesbians and aro/ace girls have more in common than people think - maybe they both often struggle to accept that they feel no attraction to men, even though society has conditioned them to do so, sometimes spending years trying to force themselves to like men in that way, when they just can’t.
this comic is called ‘wanting and not wanting at the same time’ because she wants to love. but when it comes down to the reality, she can’t fulfil the requirements of that. she wants to love someone forever, to get married and have children and grow old with her soulmate, but she doesn’t want it with this person. or that person. or anyone she meets or will ever meet. a sort of catch 22, i guess.
hope that makes sense. thanks for listening, and have a lovely pride month ❤️
(alt: it’s a screencap that says i have made 1,999 posts and have 50,005 followers)
hello! this is my 2,000th post on this blog and i thought i’d make it a giveaway post to thank y’all for 50,000 followers ^_^ i know most of those accounts are probably inactive or bots (or inactive bots) but it’s still nice to think about how many people, over the years, liked my silly drawings enough to hit follow!
unfortunately it’s not a good month for me time- or energy-wise so it’s just going to be a very little one, i hope you guys enjoy it regardless 💛
prizes:
5x $50 voucher for my webstore. this will come in the form of a code to enter during checkout, and can be used indefinitely; however, it unfortunately will not cover shipping v_v
when i contact the winners i will ask which prize they want and kind of go down the list until i “run out” of one of the prize types!
the giveaway will run from 10/jan/2019 to 25/jan/2019, reblog + like for two entries! for this one, you gotta be following me to win, sorry. blease also have ur ask or dms accessible so i can harass you about it
and as always, thanks so much for all your support over the years!! every day i think about how lucky i am to have people enjoy my work like this, and stick with me through all my stupid anime hyperfixations and abandoned comics and long hiatuses and general tomfoolery… thank you… i will keep working hard v_v
Greek Ornament in The Coloured Ornament of All Historical Styles
Today we are featuring Greek decorative plates from The
Coloured Ornament of All Historical Styles, Part I: Antiquity by Alexander
Speltz, published in Leipzig, Germany in 1915 by Baumgärtner. The multi volume
portfolio was produced with three color and four color printing based on Speltz’s
original watercolor paintings.
In
a preface to the Part I, Spetz wrote:
“In
accomplishing this work special attention has been paid to the possibility of
easily finding the text belonging to each figure, and to a classification
according to the chronology of art history and archeology, for this work is not
merely intended to be a standard for the polychromatic ornament, but also a resource
for the study of history of art and archaeology.
If
this work, whose first part herewith published and whose further parts Medieval
Period, Renaissance, and Rococo Style, Classicism will follow as soon as
possible, contributes to revive that sense of colours lost in this our prosaic
time and helps to restore to our generation that delightful rejoicing in
beautiful forms and colours, the writer’s end has been achieved.”
